It’s been a minute. A long, life changing minute. 2022 is half complete, and I have an almost 1 year old daughter. I have so much to say, and sometimes I’m not sure how to say it all but here goes nothing. I’m starting my blog back up again, to regain some confidence in sharing my pieces of not-so-perfect with whoever decides to read. And to start with, let me remind you, you are under no obligation to read this, or any of my blogs. This is a place of compassion and kindness only.

I’m a simple woman, with 2 kids, a husband and a little home in South-East Queensland. I work in healthcare, I run my own online business, I parent my 1 living child that’s here and grieve my other who is not. I spend time cherishing and loving my husband, who has been a constant in my life for nearly a decade. I not so successfully manage to do it all, and still find time to sit here and write… sometimes, or so we will see.

Let me start from where we left off, my last blog post. Well, 2020 wasn’t a friend to anyone, but I managed to get through the darkest of days of grief with my husband, and select friends who stayed by us with our heavy broken hearts. I found pen pals and online friends who took my mind away from the present at the time, the loneliness, the heartache. I guess I owe a lot of my comforting recovery to people I have never even met. It was a strong denominator in what got me through COVID, and through the death of my first child. And when I say through, I don’t mean over, no- never over. I mean, through, literally. I will never be on the other side of my recovery, of my grief. I will always be in it, and I have learned ways in which to make that more bearable. Some days, I go the full day without shedding a single tear, but I never go a day without thinking about Baby Chip. I refer to her as such, because her name matters, she matters. If you haven’t read our story, please go read it here. I haven’t really delved into much more than that when it comes to her death, or my journey through the grief from it, but I will someday. Watch this space.

I thrive off keeping busy, and having a purpose and goal. I push myself every day to find something to look forward to, even if it’s just bed that evening or a snuggle from my living child. Then I give myself bigger goals to accomplish in larger timeframes. So here I am, beginning again, a goal of mine, to write more, to express more, in a world full of videos, photos and short storylines. I’m here to share, to open and create and explore. If you want to find out what’s in store, follow along. Let’s do things the “old fashioned” way, a little bit of writing never goes astray.

Candace

Mum, wife, boss, universe believer.